Monday, January 28, 2019

Walking Down Memory Lane


I just drug out some OLD pictures from the mid/late 70's from our early years, BC (before children)😄

Now, I don't know if was just us, and it was the 70's, mind you, 😜 or whether it was the cameras we were using, but man, do I have some terrible pictures for memory keeping. However, an interesting thing happened as I was looking through them. So many feelings came to the surface as I reflected on all the different pictures I was holding in my hands. I was looking at a huge and significant part of my life. Between fond memories, grief, sentimental feelings, euphoric recall, laughter and downright pain, I felt a longing to be able to go back and do things over. To REALLY appreciate that time of my life and the people that are no longer with us. I am happy and blessed to have these pictures even though the quality and composition leaves a lot to be desired! I was not expecting this kind of reaction, since I just wanted to get them in a scrapbook and write "a little something" about each picture, which is what we scrapbookers do!
So, 40ᐩ years later, I find myself reliving these moments that I can really only get through looking at these memories frozen in time and appreciate them with all their beauty and faults.
Just like my life.

Thursday, April 26, 2018

Goodbye Dear Friend

  ~  I had to help max over the Rainbow Bridge on Saturday April 21st 2018 and I am heartbroken.

Max came to live with us at the end of 2011 when my son was no longer able to keep him. He was the sweetest dog ever, stealing the hearts of everyone who met him. He has been my loyal companion for the past 6 1/2 years, along with my 2 Dachshunds, Buddy and Peanut. I miss him so much and the lack of his presence is very painful. RIP, dear friend.

My grandkids loved him so much, as well as my brother who isn't even a "dog person!"

Saturday, November 1, 2014

I'm Back!

Hello again!

Have been hanging out on my other blog, recently, posting about my trip to Colorado in 1993!!! It has actually been a lot of fun and has stirred up fond memories. This is one of the things I enjoy so much about scrapbooking. Having another creative outlet is also a bonus!

Check out my CCM blog for my recent memory keeping layouts!

Tuesday, May 6, 2014

Feeling myself returning!

I hope that this is not a passing phase, but a new trend for me.

I'm actually feeling the will to keep going! Not just mechanical, auto pilot style, but really participate and be present in my life!

After losing Whitey, I was in shock, denial, anger, confusion, you name it. That was for more than a year. The second year, depression set in. Being overwhelmed, tired, unsure of myself, my life, my future, I fell into despair. Putting one foot in front of the other and trudging through life, not even wanting to get out of bed most of the time. I let myself go.

I read books on grief and grieving. I read affirmations. I went to grief counseling. Talked to people that cared. I prayed.

But the thing about grief is that is it not a tidy little package that we can control. No ones grieves and mourns like me. And I don't grieve and mourn like anyone else. There is no rule book. You cannot tell someone how to grieve or expect them to fall into the tidy little categories of how it is "supposed" to happen and God forbid, assign a time line. It is so counter cultural in culture of "instant" and "fast" everything.

I think I am ready to start a new chapter in my life. I'm excited to see where it is going to take me.

Thursday, October 24, 2013

Beautiful Fall Colors

I was working out in my garden on Tuesday, and noticed how beautiful my little maple looked in the distance.

It has really grown this year and the leaves changing from green to beautiful yellow/orange make it stand out from the majority of evergreens on my property.

I just had to zoom in on it!
I love to go out and take pictures in my yard to compare how much things are growing from year to year. This tree was from mom and dad's property and I have been trying to remember when we planted it. I believe the pictures below were taken 4 years ago. It was so small!

   This one was taken from the barn with my rake leaning up against it. It must have been late spring or early summer (?) not sure but it looks like the leaves don't look all the way open. Was it the same year as the above? Pictures. I really need to start dating my pictures better. (The properties on my camera are not always correct.)

I always have plans of doing a comparison scrapbook of my plants and trees. Because most of them have been gifts from friends and family, they have special meaning.
In the meantime, I'll just have to enjoy taking my pictures and keeping better track of dating them.

Maybe someday!

Wednesday, October 16, 2013

Trying to Make My Bed

You wouldn’t think that it would be too hard to expect to change my bedding and make my bed in peace, would you? Well, normally I have to fight Peanut my little girl Dachshund to stay off the bed when I’m trying to make it, but this time, Prince decided that he was not getting off the bed!
Sorry about the blurry pics, I didn’t change the setting on my camera :(
Are you comfy enough now???
On a different note, today I had a glorious day to myself. At least until Dan comes home with D and Baby~
I have been
playingorganizing my bed/studio room today and have been in front of my puter most of the day, but I did come up for air a couple times and took a few pictures of the dahlia that I bought in the spring that are FINALLY blooming! I am waiting in 3 more to do their thing!
Ringo (I didn’t name it!)
Rockabuy, not quite open all the way
I also took a few minutes to play with my candy corn lights. Time to decorate for fall!
The light looks white in the picture, but they actually look like candy corn and give off an orange and yellow glow. I still have a lot to do, I just felt like playing today

Thursday, September 19, 2013

Another year has passed...

As I sit here in the temporary calm of my house, I feel called once again to write.
It's been almost a year since my last post, and although I often think of writing, I seem to get sidetracked by the never ending list of "to do's".
My life has been turned upside down by the loss of my husband, and I am learning to live again.
Going from home, to college, to marriage, to children, to children leaving, coming back, bringing their children, raising a grand child, seems like I haven't had much time to figure out what I want to be when I grow up. Time has flown, a lot has happened. I treasure times when I can sit and enjoy the quiet and beauty right outside my bedroom window, which is where I write and create. There is a beautiful lilac, now barren of flowers, to the left of me. It was planted when we moved to the Island, brought from our first home because it had been a gift to Whitey from my parents. When we bought our first house, mom and dad would often get him something to plant for Father's day. We also have some rhododendrons and maybe some roses from our first house planted here. As a matter of fact, almost everything we have planted has a special meaning to me because they have been given to us by family and friends.
A little to my right is a bird feeder that I put up in Whitey's memory. I had originally thought that I would not keep up with the bird feeders after his loss, they had been "his thing." Besides, I had too much to do to take on another responsibility. It did not take long, however, for me to miss hearing and seeing the birds at the feeders when I went outside. So,.... I have a birdhouse outside my window where I can watch the antics, hear their chirping and watch the occasional, ok, more than occasional squirrel competing for the loot! A fun bonus for me was to have volunteer sunflowers come up under the feeder, from seeds that those greedy critters had missed!

I'm glad that I got some awesome shots of these little beauties! These were taken in July and unfortunately, they are already finished for the year. My garden, however, still has some blooming from seeds that I bought, so I am still able to enjoy my favorite fall flower a little longer.

This is the same flower and different stages! It has not been edited, this is it's real and splendid color!


This big guy was a volunteer from what I think was a pumpkin that I threw out in the garden last year for compost. He is HUGE and beautifully shaped.
The pumpkin to the right looks small compared to the big guy, but it is actually the more "normal".

This "Mammoth" Sunflower really is mammoth! It is probably the size of a dinner plate with it's petals and is about 12 feet tall. So beautiful and cheerful!

My Fuchsia is putting on a splendid show. It has been going on for a while now and isn't giving up yet. Way to go, Fuchsia.

Even though the fall season, with football, Thanksgiving, warm fires, power outages are reminders of Whitey, I will strive to make my own memories and be thankful for the fleeting beauty all around me at this melancholy time. Nature has a way of doing that.